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| well since nobody really reads these things anymore I guess I can use this as a means to really write my feelings without getting a lot of crap for it...So right now life is bitter sweet at best...There is a girl that has been, is, and will always be the love of my life. While I have made some mistakes and she is not mine to hold on to at the moment, God is doing awesome things in each of us daily. The downside...we aren't talking during this time...I mean we aren't cheating either...NO talking, texting, emailing, NOTHING!!! I am dying...it is as if she is so close yet I can't speak to her...I feel like I AM IN PRISON!!! As much as I am attempting to completely focus on God, she is still there with every thought. All I can think about is her beautiful smile and captivating eyes and complete beauty that she pocessess...I am surrounded by her everywhere, because every memory and feeling has included her and thus she floods my mind always...well i am going to have some God time because when I feel I am about to snap and break down I have to turn to God because it is total trust in Him that I am trying to get at the moment! | | |
| Wow i have really gotton bad at this update thing! So there isnt
a lot to say except I work a lot....actually a little too much.
Britt is coming to see me on Thursday!!!! I can't wait...that means
spring break is sneaking up on us. I would love to write a lot more but
it is late and I am getting some sleep!
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| I have been real slack the past few weeks about posting on Xanga, but
my wonderful girlfriend made me promise to update. I figured
since I am nine hours away it would be nice for her to hear about what
is going on down in wonderful Florida. Well I would love to say
that I have just gotten lazy and that is the purpose behind not
posting, but that isnt the case at all. During the past two
weeks, I have worked monday through friday, and been home both
weekends. I will say that I have enjoyed every minute of being
with family, friends, and of course the love of my life. But
right now I feel as if I am in the process of coughing up my left
lung. This whole sickness needs to leave me whatever it is.
I think it is starting to get better, but I won't know for sure until I
wake up. Seeing how it is now March 1, swim suit shopping is
gonna happen some time this week. I am excited because spring
break is only 21 days away...That means one full week of solid
beach. I really can't wait. There may not be many people
still at school, but that is alright because britt is coming to see
me. I know that I really should have some really meaningful or
lengthy post since I have been absent for so long but it is a little to
late for that. I am in need of some sleep because I have been
studying so long. Night to all and hopefully I can get back in
the habit.
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| It is now Valentine's Day and although I can't spend the day for lovers
with the beautiful girl that I have been with for almost 2 and a half
years, I do get to go see her this weekend!! Britt I do miss you, and
even though I have been consumed with work, you know I love you.
Since I really am broke at the moment, and we decided not to do
presents, I still thought I would give you a rose for V-Day! Baby you
know you would get the best I could give you if the funds were
available, but this will have to do for the moment. Love you and
hope that you enjoy tomorrow, even though I am not with you.
Well back to my entry....it has been a good while since I have posted
on my site, but a lot of
that has to do with my busy schedule.. Carrabba's has been a real
different job for me. I am just a couple days away from
making tips, so that is a good thing. I am hoping that I get a
day off this week before going home, but I won't know my schedule until
tomorrow. It is actually kinda late and this week is bound to be
another busy one with another test, and more work. I will try and
stay more up to date this week. Peace out! Love ya babe!
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| So....I was really trying to sleep, but I couldn't get much of that for
some reason. I just thought that I would give a little update on
my weekend. Not that there is much to say, because Lakeland is
Lakeland. For those who have dared to travel to our town in the
midst of the sunshine state, realize that there isn't much of anything
around these parts. This doesn't come in as a factor unless one
of two things happen, one you are poor (that is me) or you just don't
have anything such as a job to occupy time. We did have our
homecoming game this on Friday night which was kinda citing...well we
had a full gym. Saturday there wasn't much going on. Went
to another basketball game at school, grabbed some food at Applebee's,
and then back to the dungeon!!! (my room) I didn't feel very well
this morning so I missed church for the first time in I can't remember
how long  , and then it was off to
work. I am kinda getting excited about working a real job so that
I am occupied during the week. Maybe I won't get in blah moods
then. It must suck hanging around me when I get in these moods, b/c I
want nothing more than to be left alone until I get better. I know that
most people are this way, but that is me and I don't see it changing
any time soon. My night continued to stink tonight because the
super bowl was horrible. I am an avid sports fan and football is
at the top of my list, but I have never seen a game that I was that
bored watching...maybe it is my teem fell short of the playoffs so my
interest was diminished. Oh well....I guess that raps up my
weekend!! Maybe tomorrow will hold new and exciting things to get me on
the right foot. Sorry to whoever put up with my blah crap today!!
Peace out!
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